i'm in suspension / liking this snapshot

For those who've had to learn a new language... you know there's always an awkward plateau where you start forgetting the old language and haven't yet mastered the new language. Currently, that's exactly how I feel towards my friends. It seems as though I'm slowly losing touch with the friends in Montreal, whereas I don't really know anyone well in Toronto yet. Kinda makes me wonder if I really have any friends. Every time I go back, I just feel more and more like a stranger to the city - things change, buildings go down, buildings go up, shops and stores close, people leave, people come.

And then I realize, I've always thought I loved changes.... 2008, 2009, everything was changing in my life. I had gotten my designation, moved to a new city, gotten a new job, friends, relationship, and a place to call my own... but in fact, I think I don't really like so many drastic changes. I remember having thought, back then when I was finishing undergrad, how nice it would be if time just stopped and I stayed 22 forever - living with my parents, doing well at school, young, energetic, meeting up with friends from time to time, and getting every Friday off.

Then some dude above took my snow-globe and shook the hell out of it.

It really took a while for everything to start settling, (some for the better, and, well, like I said, social aspects still requiring some more time) - and I'm going into my irrational stasis stage again. I look at my life now, I got a nine-to-five job that's boring but pays the bill, fun coworkers, good boyfriend, my own condo, a sister that lives "near", a dog I can visit, my ps3, and quite frankly, I don't really want anything to change. I have been putting off looking for a new job even though this one probably leads to nowhere, and I've been secretly happy that no one in the work clique has left yet... knowing that it won't last. A little apprehensive for the year to come... why can't we have save points in life?