Every evening I leave work with my work-in-progress file folder, so I can do some reading or some light review work at home.
Every morning I pick up my purse near my door, with the same file folder intact and untouched from the night before, on my way back to work. I don't know why I still kid myself every evening and bother bringing the file back.
On my way to work, I use roughly 6 minutes to imagine what it would be like to win the lottery. After I pass by the lottery booth (another 6 minutes left!) I can't help but think about the to-do list and reaffirm to myself that, since I didn't win the lottery this week, they will be completed.
"I'll be extra efficient today and go through all that in the morning, leaving my afternoon open for the conf call".
Obviously reality begs to differ. The doremish hamster runs in the wheel again, and again and again.
Anyhow, while the long term plan of getting out of the rat race is still under development, I need to take care of what is going to happen in the next few weeks first. My hectic month is ahead, now that we are getting pretty close to closing date for the condo. I need to find a tenant, fix my blinds in my condo, pack and take care of about a gazillion little things while keeping my sanity at a workplace that demands about 45+ hours of my week.
I don't know how that is going to work out, but it'll have to... :(
...with the next exhalation, let go...
Wow...I see so many similarities in my life and thought processes! I lug my laptop home every day, and it's totally causing me shoulder issues since it's a "professional" messenger bag...and then I turn on my computer, go all Emo Evelyn, answer like a couple of e-mails instead of doing workwork, and surf the net. Then I tell myself "I will go into work uber early and get shizz done"...and when I wake up wanting to rip my face off, I ask myself "why do I fool myself day in and day out". Sigh...letting go on the exhalation right next to you, Mishy.
ReplyDeleteLOL @ "rip my face off".
ReplyDeleteThank you for that. Awesome.